Life

I hear I forgot
But
I see I remember
I do I understand

I don’t want to remember
I don’t want to understand
Because when I do
Even if I can forgive
I can’t forget.

If you really knew me, almost everything I am now is not me. I’ve became so distant with anything I love doing that my heart feels almost empty. I cannot stand looking at this screen that is about to make me screams. Fucking emails. These feeling make me deaf and blind and eventhough I am sinking in, I didn’t give a shit.

I just want to curl up on my bed and let Iman jumps around me. I want to hear his laughter. Please God, let me.